Luck, Faith, True Love

Dear Diary,

I have been busy, over worked actually. Truth be told, a lot has happened since I last wrote to you..
circumstances have made me question a lot of things in my life.
Luck, Faith, True love.
These words have changed me. My outlook. Is it luck that makes love betray faith? or is it faith that makes love unlucky?
I feel like a boat in the middle of an ocean of confusion, tides of uncertainty and waves of instability. Without an oar, may I add.

Why do Humans trust so much? why dont the animals and plants have that emotional closure we face? Is this how God is punishing us, killing us softly?
As Bheeshma once told Draupadi, we should view Honour and Dishonour in the same way, unaffected.
Such simple words, but so difficult to follow. Its the heart that weakens us. Its such an irony that the heart also makes us stonger..

Righteousness is another thing I have never got my head around. What makes people lie? and why do they to it to people who care? Building trust is much harder than breaking it, do they forget?

Has it occured to you, as it has to me? why do we love so fast, trust so blindly, forgive so easily but never forget?

Dear Diary, I hope I can someday answer all these questions..

With love,
XO

Happiness..

Dear Diary,

I know I have broken my resolution.. but isn't life this way too.. things never happen the way we plan it.. ( but of course, I am fully aware that this is a sorry excuse)

I am glad to say that I have been CELEBRATING for the past few days... Yes this year has turned out to be better than I had expected.. HOPE, as I said...

SO, I FINALLY got a house ( and a pretty good one, at that) God did have something good in store for me.

I came home for a couple of days. There is no place better than HOME, nothing more delicious than home food, no bed as cozy as your own bed, and nothing as warm and comforting than the family members embrace..

Until tomorrow,

xo

New Beginnings..

Following my New year's RESOLUTION, I am going to try to write to you everyday.. even if it is just a line..

2010- What an eventful year it was, more pains than gains. Being a glass half full (which is very unlike me) what does not kill you, makes you stronger.
All the difficult experiences may have made me a better person, but I am too cynical to see that.

What I have learnt from this year is that I have to change,a lot. I have to learn that everyone, everything changes, nothing remains constant except change.
It will be difficult, but then, the most difficult experiences in life are often the most transformative ones.

Whether it is was my extreme bad luck that I could not find a decent house to move in to, or then God has something better is store for me, questions my hope. Hope. Its funny how people depend on hope, and how it is hope that keeps you going on.

So yet again, I hope that this new year has something good in store for me.

xo